what i used to think…

i remember looking at medical history forms. { i used to be a holistic practioner}

i didnt understand the number of clients who checked the depression box. i wondered how could they be depressed if taking antidepressants.

was it like having high blood pressure but by taking hypertensive meds your blood pressure is controlled but still you are classified as hypertensive ?

i thought … of course the majority of us get depressed at some point or another… how ‘down’ does a person have to feel…and for how long..

fast forward three years…i remember my doctor asking me what i did during the day.{ i had been sick for a while..an autoimmune illness.} i said i like to read..explore the internet etc. he asked did i shower daily.  yes, of course. did i eat regularly…did i make my own meals. yes, why wouldn’t i ? did i spend a considerate amount of time in bed during the day. no, not at all.

i tried to create a routine…to keep ‘busy’.

im not sure when or how it crept in..but it..depression.. consumed me.

reading & exploring the net? if i can focus long enough. daily showers, cooking, eating..it no longer seemed to matter. i just did not seem to care about a whole lot…

im not lonely yet i never felt so alone in my life.



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15 Responses to what i used to think…

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  9. a concerned friend says:

    I have a sister who is very depressed. She is a very loving, smart, caring person that mostly stays to herself. Her bedroom is her haven, most of her time is spent there. She also has physical issues that the doctors are still trying to figure out. She says that she is not sure if her physical issues are causing her depression or if her depression is causing her physical issues. I know she has good days and bad days both physically and mentally. I don’t understand why she doesn’t get out more and enjoy life. Make a date with a friend, me, or just hang out in a coffee shop, by the beach, a park, hang out with a neighbor. Take the dog for a walk. NOw that I am writing this letter I hear myself ….hmmmmm maybe her haven is the best place for her. Just trying to understand and help if I can. Any advice from your readers will help. Love to everyone, love yourself and spread the love…..life is not life without love…..

  10. timeless says:

    ive been there..left there…been back again…as you have stated numerous times ” you are not alone” know that neither are you!!!

    same book..just different authors..


  11. concerned sister says:

    Not sure if my sister is depressed. What are the symptoms and how should I deal with it?


  12. so true says:

    Don’t ask what the world needs. Ask what makes you come alive, and go do it. Because what the world needs is people who have come alive.”

    ― Howard Thurman

  13. Ali Cat says:

    Trying to understand depression. Please reply and keep the learning going for us who know people with depression.
    I always say change of scenery helps. I know when I take a ride to place where the grass is green, the ocean is beautiful, or any place away from your house/room I feel revitalized. I come home and think of the beautiful nature around me and it lifts my spirits. Lets share our knowledge. Maybe with research and our personal experiences we can help each other.As this website say “you are not alone” XOXOOXXO

    • is depression thoughts says:

      Maybe if you don’t think of a change of scenery as running away from your troubles. Instead, consider it a way to give yourself a much-needed break, one hour, a couple of hours with a friend, a day trip, a weekend trip, might help get a fresh perspective on your thoughts. They also say exercise releases endorphins, the body’s own “feel good” chemicals. Not sure what helps sometimes I do know when I talk to someone I feel better my thoughts are released from my head.

  14. martha says:

    Please keep this site going…I check your blog often. This site gives me hope. You are not alone you have me

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